Gadhada Last Section Vach. 13 Vachanamrut Rahasyarth Pradeepika Tika

On many occasions, I have become apathetic and thought about going away from the Satsang. However, on seeing the masses of God’s disciples, I have remained. I cannot leave them and go away. If I do not consider a person to be a disciple of God, I can never remain with him, even if he tries millions of ways of keeping Me there. Regardless of any kind of services that he may offer Me, I am never comfortable with someone who is not a disciple. In that manner, with immense affection, I have enjoined My soul with the disciples of God. Except for God, I do not consider any object to be dear to Me. In that case, why should My affection for God not remain? In fact, when I am conducting discourses or singing devotional songs about God, I become so engrossed in ecstasy, I feel as though I will go crazy. The prudence that remains is for the benefit of the disciples. However, there is always such ecstasy in My mind, although superficially, I behave in a way that is in keeping with the etiquette of society.