Gadhada Last Section Vach. 30 Vachanamrut Rahasyarth Pradeepika Tika

Furthermore, I incessantly recall the following five issues every day. Firstly, it is a certainty that I am going to leave this body and die. There is no way of delaying this. It is indeed certain that I will die at a particular moment. I am constantly aware of this; during pleasures and pains, times of happiness and sadness; and whilst performing all activities. That is the manner of asceticism that I have. Secondly, I am constantly aware about the work that has been completed and until death occurs, the amount of work that still remains unaccomplished, which I have yet to do. Thirdly, I question, ‘have the five sensations been eliminated from My mind or not?’ Having determined that they have indeed been discarded, I probe further, ‘so why do the sensations remain active?’ A doubt constantly arises about whether they have been discarded at all or not. Fourthly, I remain concerned about whether the five sensations have been eliminated from the senior, eminent sadhus such as Muktanand Swami and other eminent disciples or not. I am constantly examining the hearts of all to ascertain whose intense passions have receded and whose have not. Fifthly, if I start allowing My soul to become dejected, it is uncertain where it would take Me. In fact, I would probably leave My body. Therefore, I believe that My mind should not be allowed to become despondent because it is due to the association with Me that all these women, men and paramhansas are happily performing devotion to God. I am pleased about that. My mind derives much pleasure from seeing all these people performing devotion to God. I feel, ‘everyone has to die at some stage, but performing devotion in this manner is the greatest benefit of living.’ Such awareness constantly remains within Me.” Shreejimaharaj spoke in this manner, i.e. under His own pretext, in order to impart teachings to His own disciples. However, He is actually the sakshat Purushottam Narayan.