Gadhada Last Section Vach. 14 Vachanamrut Rahasyarth Pradeepika Tika

Aatmanand Swami then asked, “Within my mind, there is a resolution that without doubt, I want to remain in accordance with the will of the Lord until the end of my life. Still, feeling remains ‘what should I do to earn the trust of God and sants?” Shreejimaharaj replied, “The trust of God and sants is earned when a person becomes extremely ill, but there is no-one to look after him properly; and still, that person does not demerit anyone, nor does he become frustrated. Also, the Lord and His sants may severely rebuke someone even though he is not at fault, and still, he does not demerit anyone. By this, trust for that individual develops in God and sants. And the third [type of person] is someone who becomes extremely distressed when he, even slightly, deviates from any of the vows of the Satsang; he immediately performs penance for his digression. If an inappropriate volition arises within his mind, he experiences as much agony as someone else experiences when he physically breaches the vartmans. Trust then arises in the Lord and His sants that such a person will never waver from the Satsang.”